mich

I suddenly miss Ji and JiaYi.

I feel quite sad.

At least I don't have to miss Kibs because I can see her every schoolday. At least that's a good thing (: Something good out of all the negative things. I guess that's an advantage of being in RGS. You get to see Kibs.

That girl, my best friend in P3. That girl who went to Hougang Secondary alone. All alone with no friends by her side. I just wish I could run up to her and hug her. I haven't seen her for 3-4 years. And I really miss her. The cute face. She never failed to smile.

I really miss her and I wonder how she is settling down. She's still my best friend at heart, even though it has been 4 years. Perhaps that's one thing GEP can destroy, one very sad thing. Yes, 3 years have passed and I still regret joining GEP. No matter how many friends I have made or things I have learnt in GEP, I still regret joining it.

And it's not my parent's fault. They required a student's signature.

Apart from this girl, there is this guy who also didn't get into GEP. I've always wanted to apologise to him for that scar, but going to GEP meant that all my chances of apologising vanished. Who knew if that scar would be permanent or not.

Some things GEP has given me:

- Perhaps a different and more exciting way of gaining knowledge
- A few good friends and a couple best friends
- The continuation of hiding under a shadow, which would last for 12 years. It's the 7th year this year.

Some things GEP has stolen from me:

- My very best friend for life
- An apology. Something I cannot forgive myself perhaps for the rest of my life.
- The pleasure of being in a once in a lifetime leadership role.

As stated in that letter:

"... top 1% of the cohort."

What a lie. Be it i the top 1% or not, I can never forgive myself for this. Why? I really miss Jia Yi, Kai Cong, Larry, Jia Jing and all the rest.

After all, the lyrics in that song were too meaningful.

"Gongshang Gongshang here's where we belong."

I've never found it more meaningful in my 12 years of living until today. I was transferred from where I originally belonged.

Written in tears.

-mich

mich

I suddenly miss Ji and JiaYi.

I feel quite sad.

At least I don't have to miss Kibs because I can see her every schoolday. At least that's a good thing (: Something good out of all the negative things. I guess that's an advantage of being in RGS. You get to see Kibs.

That girl, my best friend in P3. That girl who went to Hougang Secondary alone. All alone with no friends by her side. I just wish I could run up to her and hug her. I haven't seen her for 3-4 years. And I really miss her. The cute face. She never failed to smile.

I really miss her and I wonder how she is settling down. She's still my best friend at heart, even though it has been 4 years. Perhaps that's one thing GEP can destroy, one very sad thing. Yes, 3 years have passed and I still regret joining GEP. No matter how many friends I have made or things I have learnt in GEP, I still regret joining it.

And it's not my parent's fault. They required a student's signature.

Apart from this girl, there is this guy who also didn't get into GEP. I've always wanted to apologise to him for that scar, but going to GEP meant that all my chances of apologising vanished. Who knew if that scar would be permanent or not.

Some things GEP has given me:

- Perhaps a different and more exciting way of gaining knowledge
- A few good friends and a couple best friends
- The continuation of hiding under a shadow, which would last for 12 years. It's the 7th year this year.

Some things GEP has stolen from me:

- My very best friend for life
- An apology. Something I cannot forgive myself perhaps for the rest of my life.
- The pleasure of being in a once in a lifetime leadership role.

As stated in that letter:

"... top 1% of the cohort."

What a lie. Be it i the top 1% or not, I can never forgive myself for this. Why? I really miss Jia Yi, Kai Cong, Larry, Jia Jing and all the rest.

After all, the lyrics in that song were too meaningful.

"Gongshang Gongshang here's where we belong."

I've never found it more meaningful in my 12 years of living until today. I was transferred from where I originally belonged.

Written in tears.

-mich