Happy birthday to HuiJun again :D

We sang her the birthday song for more than 4 times! The starting note was too damn high and we sang terribly off-pitch. That's what you get from a shitty class who isn't bonded at all. But everyone loves huijun <33

WONGSHOUWEI YOU'RE SO CUTE.



haha don't worry PSLE will turn out all right for you.

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A random photo of Elliot 2 years ago:



Hell, he's just laughing dude HE ISN'T REACHING THE CLIMAX OF AN ORGASM.

Oh anyway he has grown much taller.

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Have you ever gotten the feeling that you're different from your sisters?

Like two of them are more similar to each other than they are to you? (unless they are twins)

Ya. I have that feeling.

I have two sisters. I am different from them:

1. I was the only one who got into GEP.

2. I was the only one who was a prefect in primary school.

3. I was the only one who always wore different school uniforms. (primary-secondary school thing doesn't count cos that's common amongst siblings)

4. My parents expected the highest out of ME.

5. I was the only one forced into two schools not of my choice.

I'm not boasting or anything, in fact I HATE all the points above. I HATED being in GEP. I HATED being in different schools from them. I HATED being a prefect though I was proud of surviving as a corrupted one. I HATED being expected high marks out of myself. AND I ESPECIALLY HATE BEING FORCED INTO SAINT HILDA'S PRIMARY SCHOOL AND RAFFLES GIRLS' SCHOOL.

The feeling kinda sucks, when they talk about people you don't know of. For example, I know that there's this particular guy in their school called Eugene whom they find weird. I'm the only one who doesn't know who Mr Eugene is and I'm left to wonder how he looks like, why he's obnoxious, so on and so forth.

AND

It's kinda weird having a sister as the chairperson of another school's choir. It's like... uncomfortable. Like next year our schools we be competing each other for a high SYF title, be it whether i'm chosen or not. I wish I was in that school.

OH OH AND MY SISTERS ARE WONDER-WOMEN WHEN IT COMES TO CCA. For me it's like I'm just another boring member of my cca whom no one really knows and that if i flew to arctic no one would seriously notice. For them they're like WOW WOW CHAIRPEOPLE OF THEY'RE CCAs ZOMG! Oh um ya, that's true. One was President of Drama, and the other of Choir.

Oh and I realised im so smart cos I actually considered going to their CCAs before la! And I didn't even fulfill the very first requirement to get into their cca: get into their school first. very loser right? after being forced to go GEP and leave my beloved darlings like JiaYi behind im actually forced (by my parents again, of course) to go to RGS. pffffffffffft.

AND AND you know hor, the best part is that BOTH MY SISTERS HATE RGS! They just hate my school. Something about RGS being a very weird school and all that shit la. The last time I fought with the oldest one she was like, bringing in my school into the argument and that was TOTALLY IRRELEVANT. We were like fighting then she said "too bad RGS people just got damn high IQ, have no EQ at all".

And another time I helped her solve some puzzle she was impressed and when I was walking away I saw her alt+tab and MSN with her friend saying "my sister actually solved that thing! stupid rgs girl."

Ironic right? Stupid associated with solving something?

Ya, it's figurative. Be it figurative or not I still damn hate being different la.

omg I feel like posting f word but no i wont cos the last time i did i got into some fucking trouble. oops.

ya fine im not some quiet loser, happy? im damn pissed with lots of things and im damn stress. everything is just so sad. there are many things i wanna say but i just cant.

everytime during choir i feel so sad cos ive no one to talk to. then many people think im this damn quiet and shy girl who just doesnt talk or socialise. maybe the only person who knows im not that boring girl is reichel cos we're in same class and during class time i'll make all the sex jokes and all that. but thats a different thing.

im so sad. really so sad. i still remember how badly i wanted to go to dunman high secondary. how i did not want to go to st hildas (gep). i was forced to all the time. my parents forced me. i remember that when i was p3 i was begging my parents not to send me to gep. they got pissed with me we fought bla bla bla. then one fine they i came up to them and said "okay ill go gep so but if i dont like it there ill go back to gongshang."

Then they happily agreed, knowing that a dumb 10 year old has no authority to go back to the school she prefers.

im sorry im not the quiet, smiley mich you think i am.

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oh and since im so pissed, depressed and sad i'll share another event with whoever reads my blog. only jian chong knows about it. i never even told ji, kibs or huijun. i just told worm cos i really wanted someone to know about this.

I had this maid for 7 years. We were damn close, even closer than between me and my working mum. I was a young child then, i didn't know how hardworking my mum was at work, and that everyday she was hoping to get home as soon as possible to eat dinner with her three daughters.

i loved my maid so much that instead of sleeping beside my parents, i slept beside my maid even when i was in p6.

so when it was finally time to say goodbye to her i cried like crap cos i wouldn't see her that often anymore.

that was what she promised me. that she would visit me often.

the following week after she left i called the number she gave. for lots and lots of time no one answered. one day someone answered. i told that woman i was looking for her. she told me she knew her, but that she didnt know where she was.

then the next few weeks i kept trying to contact her. whatever number she gave, i just kept calling and calling. i was like a small orphan looking for her dead mum.

i never had contact with her after that. she smsed me once one year later but after that no more contact. she left during my psle year, when i needed her most.

now i loathe her. you might find me unreasonable to loathe someone who took care of me for seven years.

but no, i paid a price for the care she gave me. i kept her secrets. i dont even know if my sisters know about what i hid for her. i kept the secret of her being pregnant and then aborting. i kept the secret of her so-called "husband" dying. i kept the secret of her sister dying. i kept the secret of her being pregnant again (when i was 11 years old i NEVER considered whose baby it was since her "husband" was "dead").

I knew she must have lied a lot. To me. To the then innocent child who didnt understand what the hell was going on. She left cos she wanted to raise her child. her pregnancy wasnt obvious cos she wore loose clothes.

But the saddest thing was that she never contacted me. anymore. My "mothers" just keep coming and going.

This is the second time a maid has left because of pregnancy. The first one was like 6-7months pregnant but my parents didnt know cos of loose clothes. Again.

I hate maids. sorry, but i really hate them. i just cannot get over these things which happened to me. these things which made me so broken, so sad.

-mich

Happy birthday to HuiJun again :D

We sang her the birthday song for more than 4 times! The starting note was too damn high and we sang terribly off-pitch. That's what you get from a shitty class who isn't bonded at all. But everyone loves huijun <33

WONGSHOUWEI YOU'RE SO CUTE.



haha don't worry PSLE will turn out all right for you.

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A random photo of Elliot 2 years ago:



Hell, he's just laughing dude HE ISN'T REACHING THE CLIMAX OF AN ORGASM.

Oh anyway he has grown much taller.

---

Have you ever gotten the feeling that you're different from your sisters?

Like two of them are more similar to each other than they are to you? (unless they are twins)

Ya. I have that feeling.

I have two sisters. I am different from them:

1. I was the only one who got into GEP.

2. I was the only one who was a prefect in primary school.

3. I was the only one who always wore different school uniforms. (primary-secondary school thing doesn't count cos that's common amongst siblings)

4. My parents expected the highest out of ME.

5. I was the only one forced into two schools not of my choice.

I'm not boasting or anything, in fact I HATE all the points above. I HATED being in GEP. I HATED being in different schools from them. I HATED being a prefect though I was proud of surviving as a corrupted one. I HATED being expected high marks out of myself. AND I ESPECIALLY HATE BEING FORCED INTO SAINT HILDA'S PRIMARY SCHOOL AND RAFFLES GIRLS' SCHOOL.

The feeling kinda sucks, when they talk about people you don't know of. For example, I know that there's this particular guy in their school called Eugene whom they find weird. I'm the only one who doesn't know who Mr Eugene is and I'm left to wonder how he looks like, why he's obnoxious, so on and so forth.

AND

It's kinda weird having a sister as the chairperson of another school's choir. It's like... uncomfortable. Like next year our schools we be competing each other for a high SYF title, be it whether i'm chosen or not. I wish I was in that school.

OH OH AND MY SISTERS ARE WONDER-WOMEN WHEN IT COMES TO CCA. For me it's like I'm just another boring member of my cca whom no one really knows and that if i flew to arctic no one would seriously notice. For them they're like WOW WOW CHAIRPEOPLE OF THEY'RE CCAs ZOMG! Oh um ya, that's true. One was President of Drama, and the other of Choir.

Oh and I realised im so smart cos I actually considered going to their CCAs before la! And I didn't even fulfill the very first requirement to get into their cca: get into their school first. very loser right? after being forced to go GEP and leave my beloved darlings like JiaYi behind im actually forced (by my parents again, of course) to go to RGS. pffffffffffft.

AND AND you know hor, the best part is that BOTH MY SISTERS HATE RGS! They just hate my school. Something about RGS being a very weird school and all that shit la. The last time I fought with the oldest one she was like, bringing in my school into the argument and that was TOTALLY IRRELEVANT. We were like fighting then she said "too bad RGS people just got damn high IQ, have no EQ at all".

And another time I helped her solve some puzzle she was impressed and when I was walking away I saw her alt+tab and MSN with her friend saying "my sister actually solved that thing! stupid rgs girl."

Ironic right? Stupid associated with solving something?

Ya, it's figurative. Be it figurative or not I still damn hate being different la.

omg I feel like posting f word but no i wont cos the last time i did i got into some fucking trouble. oops.

ya fine im not some quiet loser, happy? im damn pissed with lots of things and im damn stress. everything is just so sad. there are many things i wanna say but i just cant.

everytime during choir i feel so sad cos ive no one to talk to. then many people think im this damn quiet and shy girl who just doesnt talk or socialise. maybe the only person who knows im not that boring girl is reichel cos we're in same class and during class time i'll make all the sex jokes and all that. but thats a different thing.

im so sad. really so sad. i still remember how badly i wanted to go to dunman high secondary. how i did not want to go to st hildas (gep). i was forced to all the time. my parents forced me. i remember that when i was p3 i was begging my parents not to send me to gep. they got pissed with me we fought bla bla bla. then one fine they i came up to them and said "okay ill go gep so but if i dont like it there ill go back to gongshang."

Then they happily agreed, knowing that a dumb 10 year old has no authority to go back to the school she prefers.

im sorry im not the quiet, smiley mich you think i am.

---

oh and since im so pissed, depressed and sad i'll share another event with whoever reads my blog. only jian chong knows about it. i never even told ji, kibs or huijun. i just told worm cos i really wanted someone to know about this.

I had this maid for 7 years. We were damn close, even closer than between me and my working mum. I was a young child then, i didn't know how hardworking my mum was at work, and that everyday she was hoping to get home as soon as possible to eat dinner with her three daughters.

i loved my maid so much that instead of sleeping beside my parents, i slept beside my maid even when i was in p6.

so when it was finally time to say goodbye to her i cried like crap cos i wouldn't see her that often anymore.

that was what she promised me. that she would visit me often.

the following week after she left i called the number she gave. for lots and lots of time no one answered. one day someone answered. i told that woman i was looking for her. she told me she knew her, but that she didnt know where she was.

then the next few weeks i kept trying to contact her. whatever number she gave, i just kept calling and calling. i was like a small orphan looking for her dead mum.

i never had contact with her after that. she smsed me once one year later but after that no more contact. she left during my psle year, when i needed her most.

now i loathe her. you might find me unreasonable to loathe someone who took care of me for seven years.

but no, i paid a price for the care she gave me. i kept her secrets. i dont even know if my sisters know about what i hid for her. i kept the secret of her being pregnant and then aborting. i kept the secret of her so-called "husband" dying. i kept the secret of her sister dying. i kept the secret of her being pregnant again (when i was 11 years old i NEVER considered whose baby it was since her "husband" was "dead").

I knew she must have lied a lot. To me. To the then innocent child who didnt understand what the hell was going on. She left cos she wanted to raise her child. her pregnancy wasnt obvious cos she wore loose clothes.

But the saddest thing was that she never contacted me. anymore. My "mothers" just keep coming and going.

This is the second time a maid has left because of pregnancy. The first one was like 6-7months pregnant but my parents didnt know cos of loose clothes. Again.

I hate maids. sorry, but i really hate them. i just cannot get over these things which happened to me. these things which made me so broken, so sad.

-mich